Fani Meyrina

hello long time no see. kepikiran buat ngisi blog tapi ga sempet juga. bukan karena sibuk atau apa. tapi sebenernya lagi bingung apa ya yang bakal ditulis??
tiba tiba hari ini pas gue buka twitter dan menlihat timeline yang diisi dengan sejuta kata (?) dan perasaaan gue ga tau kenapa merasa kayak seperti ada seorang yang sedang marah atau gimana gue ga ngerti lah.
nah langsung terlintas di pikiran gue judul ini nih yang diatas.
inilah yang ada dalam pikiran gue sekarang.
sebenernya gue ga tau apa kah orang orang yang ada di sekitar gue benar benar baik atau jahat. maksudnya, misalkan ada temen gue yang bilang si A jahat padahal sebenernya belum tentu dia jahat atau mungkin sebaliknya. iya ga sih? oke lanjut. sama aja kayak orang-orang di sekitar gue yang mungkin bilang gue baik atau jahat. terkadang gue bisa jadi keduanya. yap! gue akuin terkadang manusia seperti itu. pada dasarnya gue ga tau apakah gue orang yang baik atau bukan. tapi di suatu kondisi terkadang kita memang diharuskan untuk berbuat jahat. contoh: gue harus berpura-pura senyum depan orang yang kurang gue suka tapi setelah itu ketika temen-temen lagi ngomongin dia gue juga ikutan ngomongin. itu terlihat munafik memang. tapi sepertinya dan pada kenyataannya banyak orang yang seperti itu. tapi kalo dipikir, agak ga mungkin kita ngejutekin orang yang kurang kita suka secara tiba-tiba. bisa jadi si orang itu bingung, ya ga? kalo diliat dari contoh ini, mungkin in yang bisa disebut "fake". ini memang sangat jahat (gue akuin) tapi.. inilah kenyataannya. dan gue juga tau kalo ada yang bersikap itu ke gue. oke, anggeplah itu adil, menjadi orang fake dan orang bersikap fake ke kita. dan gue pikir kita ga patut untuk menyalahkan orang yang bersikap fake karna pada dasarnya apa yang dilakukan setiap orang, ada tujuannya dibalik itu semua (walaupun pada akhirnya itu menyakitkan bagi orang lain, but.. this is life!!)

I want to be a child who is obedient to parents

I wish I could reach my ideals

I wish I could love my brother

I wish I could ever love my sister

I wish I could see my parents forever

I wish I could have a life that seems perfect

I wish I also had a true love

 I wish I could be a great woman

I wish I could be a faithful wife

I wish I could be the mother who can educate their children

I wish I could see my brother will succeed

I wish I could be a great psychologist

I wish I could become a teacher

I want to be able to make a change

I wish I could make friends with my best friends forever

I also want to be a career woman

I wish I could help children less fortunate

I wish I could be like those who are successful

I wish I could be like they are happy

and I also want to feel like they feel pain

I wish my mom was not angry with me again

I wish I did not disappoint my parents

I want to be with my friends

I want to be always there for friends






And ....

I wish I could make my parents happy forever

I wish I could love someone who loves me as it is

This time I will talk about the man who seemed to say I'm proud of him. He is my brother. Why? not because he is a man who often get the achievement at his school or anywhere or maybe because he's handsome? (itu apalagi). That because I love his ideas. I like how he faced life, and too bad because I've noticed lately. He was so nice, because my brother is willing to accompany me everywhere, willing to drive me everywhere. And he will not get angry if I ask for his help. 
He was too impatient of his life in recent years. when he faced a bad thing, he never grieve. Even though my mother told me that  he's lazy, but I do not think like that. In fact he has a plan how he would make his parents proud. 
 Dad once told me that he is a very good character. He never asks anything if that's not important. And I think he'll be like Daddy someday. Hopefully he can feel happy life later, a happy family and still have the bestfriends like that now he had.

"Oh God, please protect him, help him when he faces difficulties, ease him in living his life. hopefully what he wants he can get. And hopefully he can become the best person for the family and he became a dutiful son to parents. Give him a perfect family soon"




Amin..

Talking about love, its look like there will be no end and will not be bored.  You know why? Because when we talk about love all the feeling being one. Yaah.. seperti itulah menurutku kalo lagi ngomongin tentang cinta pasti langsung semangat nge gosip deh  ( as always.. ). Tapi yang bikin bingung kenapa kalo ngomongin cinta pasti objeknya kalo gebetan ya pacar atau mungkin.... mantan (?) Jarang loh ada yang ngomongin tentang cinta sama temen, sahabat, hewan peliharaan dan terutama keluarga! kenapa ya?? Gue sendiri juga masih bingung kenapa.

 Yah, tapi ga bisa disalahin juga siiihh....because I was also one of them. I talk about love when I love or like someone. And it was great fun!! Well, actually, I couldn't understand the meaning of 'Love' until now. Okay, let me ask You guys. You know what Love is? Let me now!! every person must have a meaning of Love. Jadi sebenernya ga ada yang tau persis apa sih 'Cinta' itu (?)

terkadang iri deh sama temen-temen yang punya kisah cinta sendiri hahaha. ya pasti semua orang mau dong dicintai? setiap orang tekadang gampang mendapatkan cinta nya tapi kadang juga nih susah ngedapetinnya (Saya misalnya) ya... ya.. udah takdir nya masing-masing juga kali ya. Lets find Your Love before its too late Guys!! Ga mau kan kalo diantara kalian ada yang sampe nangis kejer gara-gara ga bisa ngedapetin cinta lo? Semoga nggak deh amin..

And.. who already have a love, keep it carefully. Beruntung kalian yang sudah memilikinya. Pastinya punya banyak cerita indah kan? Ya... walaupun banyak juga sedihnya. But that's normal. love will not be fun kalo kita hanya ngerasain yang seneng-senengnya aja loh. Jadi ada pembelajaran juga dalam 'Cinta'
Tapi jangan juga memaksakan 'Cinta' itu sendiri.Terkadang apa yang kita harapkan ga sesuai dengan takdir yang ada. Jika sekarang ia bilang cinta, bukan ga mungkin ke depannya akan berubah jadi 'Tidak Cinta'. ga ada yang tau kapan sih 'Cinta' akan bertahan lama. Dan ga semua orang bisa menerima perubahan itu kan??
Setiap orang mesti berhati-hati menghadapi Cinta kalo emang ga mau terjadi sesuatu yang berbahaya (?)
Sometimes Love plunge us.

For me, Love is the secret.No one knew who My Love. Because I keep it in My heart. If people say "Let's say Your love" I'll answer " Not now, because there will be time later..."
I will wait because I want..



So.... Find your Love, Feel you Love, Keep your Love
Because Love is Forever if  that's You want

already 18 years old I live, but I think this is the culmination of my frustration. gimana enggak? dia selalu menganggap bahwa apa yang dia katakan selalu benar. dan setiap hal yang dia yang dia perintahkan HARUS dilakukan.  that's enough for me! I have my own way to organize this all. bukan nya tidak mau mendengar apa yang dia katakan. selama ini saya menuruti apa yang ia inginkan  (sebagian besar ). and I think it's time I acted on my desire. tapi tentu tidak tanpa persetujuannya. aku menyayanginya. jujur sangat!

and i'm not going to be like today, jika bukan karena nya. but why You act like a child? intervene in any problems.

 did You know? You've lost one person. people who love You. but that feeling may be lost along with You attitude toward. Dia harus berubah jika ingin segala keadaan berubah lebih baik. 
Hampir seminggu, keadaannya semakin kacau. you know? It's like World War III. And she really makes everyone arround her hates her. Dad who I know, he is a very patient, losing patience

You hurt my father, and I do not like if someone had hurt him.Why You never trust him completely? if He did a litltle mistake, You immediately disputed! 

why oh why? 

I hope You change